my new job's got me depressed. well, i guess i'm letting myself get depressed.
i have worked really diligently to keep myself from griping and moaning and whining and blowing off the steam. today, i need to vent. please forgive the rant.
there is NOTHING to do here. why did they hire me? I sense they thought it would be busier.
when i say i do nothing, take it literally. every once in a while, they hand me some grunt work -- make a few copies, send a fax, order lunch, pull a couple of files. other than that, i spend 8 hours trying to look busy. i fail.
i'm just not sure what to do. i'm considering checking to see if my old job will take me back. who knows if they would -- i left after only six months, thinkng this here was a good oppty. my last job didn't thrill, but it was fine.
i was happy then -- happy with my life, my adorable little apartment, my AA meetings, my friends. now, i'm depressed and obsessed -- all i can talk or think about is how bored i am all day. dread.
i need a job/paycheck, OF COURSE. and benefits, so it's not like i can just walk.
should i give it a chance? my boss tells me it will get busier and there is oppty, but can i make it, doing nothing for 40 hours per week until who knows when?
everyone is very nice. it's a small family business in a very small office. i like that's it's super casual -- i could wear pajamas and no one would care. if i need to leave early or take a day off, they don't care at all, and they'd pay me, even though i've been here only a few weeks.
still, i'm not a morning person and the job starts at 7:30, and its 45 minutes from my house. at my old job, i got in at 9:30 and it was 12 minutes from home. my sleep was, for the first time, great. now, i have so much trouble again -- getting to sleep and staying asleep. i'm always exhausted
also, food's more problematic here -- i've over-tired, bored and unhappy. and they're ALL obsessed with food. they order lunch before 10 am.
i'm certainly building a case for leaving, aren't i? but it's scarey -- i do need that paycheck and who knows, maybe the next job i'd find would be AWFUL. i hate job-jumping too.
does anyone have any suggestions or thoughts on this? i find myself pretty confused and bummed.
THANKS!
I'm so sorry! It sounds mind numbing. Can you talk to your supervisor and ask if there are more things that they can find for you to do. Being bored makes for a really long day, and too much thinking time! I wish I had more advice to give. As jobs go, I suppose it could be a lot worse, but if you're unhappy, then it isn't worth it. If you think that you would like to have your old job back, it doesn't hurt to ask. I hope something changes for you soon. Sending {{{HUGS}}}
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about the job issue. Jobs are toughies... the stress but yet having to need it...
ReplyDeleteHang in there
xoxo
-Lisa
Why not send out feelers for the perfect job while you weather it out there until your path opens up? If you could do anything, what would you do? They (the proverbial They) always say that the best time to look for a job is while you still have one.
ReplyDeleteGood luck, honey!
Angela; thank you. and YES, the days are long. i am feeling much, much better today. i deposited my paycheck last night and realized that i am very, very happy to have a job.there is no stress or competition, which there was a lot of in my last job. i've decided to give it more time and see. in the mean time, i'm working on doing interesting things to do AFTER work.
ReplyDeleteLisa; thank you so much for writing. yes, jobs are toughies, because we sure do need them!! everyone else in my family always knew exactly what they wanted to be "when they grew up". i've never had any idea. but in the meantime, i do need to pay the bills. .....to be continued, i'm sure. thanks again for your support
Danielle Mari: perfect advice. i am going to give the job more time AND look around while i'm here. this does give me the time to explore. i have one idea already, that i'm going to purse this evening. life is filled with opportunities! thank you for your wisdom!!!!
I definitely think it is a good thing to look at things to do after work. It gives you something to look forward to at the end of the day. In the meantime, I do think that putting out some feelers is not a bad idea as someone else mentioned.
ReplyDeleteI sympathetically know how job stuff is crappy, but unfortunately we all need paychecks, so hard.
tiptoe: i really appreciate the support. i am doing better today -- really making the best of things.
ReplyDeletewe do need paychecks. boo. hope things are coming along in your world on the job front. good luck with everything you're doing!!!!
That sounds horrible. I have a lot of anxiety about what my next job will be like (I'll be looking in a couple of months). Pay and benefits are GREAT. Very important! I hope things will fall into place either way. :)
ReplyDeleteI would think they would want you to have something to do since they are paying you. But I can definitely see how boring it must be. I would say browse around Craig's List and other job places just to see what is out there. It's always good to stay up on things.
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