Pancakes were a big binge food of mine. i haven't eaten them in at least five years, if not more. they were always just so scarey for me.
in the last couple of weeks, i've been making them for dinner on a regular basis. i love them. i eat a normal amount, i savor them and then i'm completed satisfied.
i never really thought i'd eat pancakes again, but here i am. woo hoo. happy days are here again!
food really feels different these day. yesterday, i was snowbound and struggling with mean cramps. i slept, took a bath and watched movies. and i ate cookies and leftovers and the beloved pancakes. it was all kind of hodge podge and not exactly balanced, but i was perfectly happy.
things really are different. i'm satisfied with meals and then forget about food until the next right time to eat. isn't that wild?
i'm clean and sober and getting comfortable with food. now, i really am free to plan my life. it's a little scarey; yet, how great is this?!!!