Wednesday, November 10, 2010

No Weigh In - Day Three

yes, it's the evening of day three, and i haven't gotten on the scale. i'm not sure what will happen tomorrow, as i am feeling antsy about it. still, it's one more day and then one more day and then one more day. but i'll probably give in at some point.

the last blog was a good one for me to write, and the responses really helped me. i realize how much i rely on a few numbers of a scale, and i start to see how meaningless they are. that's a lot for me to say. well, i can see they're meaningless, but i don't think i've taken it in.

i knew i gave those numbers super-powers in the past, but i'm finding i still do, way more than i thought.

something very important to think about and take way, way in.

thanks to everyone. you're all helping so much.


  1. Woo hoo, congrats on another day of staying strong! It will get easier with time, too...when you're in the habit it seems absolutely essential to know the number every morning, but after a while you can come to see how unnecessary it is. When I'm traveling I often have a couple days of panic because I don't have my daily dose of measurement...but it's kind of freeing as well, to learn that you can go about the day without that thought-constraining ritual.

    Hang in there, you're doing great!

  2. Yeah to no weigh in today again! It can be difficult to break, but the more you do, the easier it will become.

    Weights never equate to who you are as a person. The less value you place on it, the more you can focus on other, more meaningful, substantial things in life.

  3. Yay for you! That's such a huge step, and I'm so glad you have lasted this long. :) I'm so happy for you!

  4. cammy; to go about the day without knowing what i weigh. how wild that it's kind of an exotic concept to me. thanks for reminding me!

    tiptoe; "the more you do, the easier it will become". i hadn't thought about that. it's true of everything else -- when not weighing in? thanks. that's a good thought for me to hold in my head. and yes, i good certainly free myself up to exist more in the world, if i weren't thinking about three digits on a scale

    S.A. it is a big step. i'm surprised i still weigh myself every day, actually. it's such a punishing thing to do. i want to spend some time really thinking about what this all means -- five pounds here or there. what on earth does it have to do with anything? hope i can really get it into my head that pounds are meaningless. we'll see. i'm sure you'll here more!

  5. I weigh myself everyday and it only leads to disappointment and self hatred. I've been fighting/living with anorexia for about 4 years now. I truly feel addicted.

  6. Great job! Keep it up. I'm envious actually, you are an inspiration.

  7. Pen; thank you for writing. i'm so sorry for how we all suffer. how can we hate ourselves so much over a few pounds? we do, but if you stop and think about it... I'm going to read more of your blog - i wonder how your anorexia developed. i'm glad you stopped by and i look forward to learning more about your story.

    Harriet; thanks. i had three good days and then i weighed myself today and here i am, thinking about it. i need the courage to start over. i'm sick of this devotion to a number. i was whining to my boyfriend that i'm getting chubby. just yesterday, scale-free, i wasn't thinking about it. doesn't that sound a whole lot better?

  8. How brave of you! Hurrah! I actually (get this) got RID of my scale after such an experiment. The first few days it was like a phantom limb. I kept wandering in to weigh myself. Little by little, I started to forget about it. I had a big epiphany when I had to fill out some form (costuming I think) and had NO IDEA of my digits. I had to write a question mark. It felt very empowering.
    And hey- any scale free day is a day you have given yourself a gift. Mark those days with celebration! Don't fret about the rest. Peace!