Saturday, October 17, 2009

life change Part 1

the business travel season starts with a vengeance. leaving for the west coast at 5am tomorrow. and then it's pretty consistent through X-mas. i'm really tired of it. it's time for me to dig in and make some life changes.

i've never found a fulfilling career. for years, i put mad energy into finding my soul's work -- seminars, career counselors, job changes. i'd read everything about every job possible and i applied to grad school many, many, many times in many different fields. i never went, BUT i did get into one Ivy league law school. that was my best moment careerwise.

i've been a human resources manager, a casting assistant, an executive recruiter, an events coordinator and now, i'm a sales manager. NONE of these jobs fit me or fulfilled me.

as many of you know, a few years ago a while my parents were dying, my life detoured into drugs and alcohol.

coming back from that, i was just able to put one foot in front of the other and head to my therapist and groups. as i was started to function, my brother let me come and answer his phones. in time, i started making sales calls. i've never liked it, but it's kept me employed, and i am GRATEFUL.

now, i'm feeling...almost confident. i'm telling myself that i have the strength and ability to do whatever i want. it used to scare me. now, i'm a little excited.

so, i'll be a traveling gal. don't know how much time i'll have for blogging. i'm planning to check in as much as possible. food on the road is never easy. BUT, i do feel more confident. if i don't write, i'll be thinking of you all and wishing you peace.

i hope it's warm in california

6 comments:

  1. have a very safe and productive trip and just plan to leave your scale behind.

    r.p.

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  2. It's definitely warm (too warm, I think) in Southern CA right now!
    I'm with you on the career hunt. I don't know what will fulfill me. Maybe I'm idealizing and fantasizing too much. Being laid off is giving me some time to think about this one...
    Travel safe and have fun!

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  3. thank you for your good wishes and great advice.

    i'm traveling lite this week. leaving home curlers, multiple outfit changes, most of my make-up.

    my books always weigh the most. in the past ti would have said "they weigh a lot, better them than me." now, i more interested in carrying my own weight on this trip.

    thanks again.

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  4. My part of CA is warm, but gray and wet.

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  5. Be safe and Be happy!! Traveling scares me so much, even though i enjoy it once i get going.

    I feel you on the career thing, glad to know im not alone in that.
    take care
    s

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  6. Hate those 5 am flights. Glad to know someone else has also struggled with career choice---don't you envy those people who get good grades, find a major they like, and presto at 24 they are a vet or whatever and their whole life is set!

    Perhaps this will lead to something you really do want to do.....(keep hoping that will happen to Cow)

    Happy travelling!

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