anyone else feeling achey? aaargh, i have an all-day flight tomorrow. AND i am the worst sick person. i am sick; hear me whine.
feeling under the weather scares me. it's weird.
i think a part of the fear circles around my ED. it's hard to connect with hungry and full when i'm sick. when i'm well and my stomach gurgles or my head aches, it's often a sign that i'm hungry. when i'm ailing and the tummy churns or the head throb, i can't be sure, and i lose equilibrium around food.
do i want to eat for comfort when i'm sick OR am i hungry.
my ED sees an opportunity and remembers something about starving a fever and feeding a flu. or was it the reverse. ahhh, why not starve them both, he suggests, while he's gaining strength and mine is failing from fever?
my healthy brain kicks in and says NO, NO, NO, Ed. We have to nourish our achey body.
But readers, you know how much work this whole process is.
so, i'm off to rest my aching bones. and i will feed them. i can't stand the obsession. it's just sort habitual now.
but then again, there ARE other things bothering me. i fall back on the ED diversion.