Sunday, December 21, 2008

telling on myself

i woke up this morning to the following email:

Dear Melissa:
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You can save money on 30 Generic klonopin 1mg Pills
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You will not have to leave the comfort of your home at, Mountain Rd.
to receive your order
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We meet your needs at (I ERASED THE NAME OF THE WEBSITE)
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Melissa J, Collect from us a New ID : (ALSO DELETED)
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add the New ID while placing a new order

I have not erased the email. i twiddled with ordering.
wouldn't it be nice to sleep really well?
and wake-up anxiety free?

again, i have not erased the email. i tell myself to erase it,
because if i'm that crazy for klonopin, i can always find it online
again. but i hold this in my inbox, because this place sent it quickly
and sent good klonopin.(always dicey when you're ordering from who knows
where.)

i need to delete this. i must delete this. but i'm not ready, and
that's a bad sign.

okay, i'm going to delete it. ow, this one hurts.

DELETED AND EMPTIED FROM TRASH!!! THANK YOU
BLOGGER BUDDIES.

5 comments:

  1. thanks, Abi. it's amazing how good telling on yourself can be. and thanks for letting me tell you.

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  2. Good for YOU. And I wish you could send it to the FBI or something to stop those vultures from preying on people's disease. Makes me SO mad. How do they live with themselves?

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  3. Good for you, sweetheart.

    Next one they send, mark it as spam, and it will get sent to the spam folder first.

    I know how hard that was for you. I really do.

    I'm proud of you. You're the best.

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  4. DM: it's the almighty dollar, isn't it? you can get anything so easily from the internet. it's scarey. blogging has helped so much. writing it out and everyone's support has made me a better person. applause, applause for my friends here! (trying a little theatre talk, there.)

    Karen: i'm going to "spam" it when i get one again. excellent idea! it will get easier once my nerves calm down. and you're the best!

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