since Oprah wrote about her weight gain in her January magazine, i've been formulating what i think of her opinion of her "falling off the wagon", as she called it.
i've read a lot of commentary about her article and statements. most people seemed angry that she felt "embarrassed" by the weight gain. many wanted her to be comfortable in her current body, accept how she is now and be a role-model for large-size women. others complained that she talked about her weight in a time of war, economic crisis and poverty.
i feel differently. i respect oprah's honesty. if she doesn't like being 200 pounds, why should she say otherwise? this feels like one of the first times oprah's made herself vulnerable.
She says she's embarrassed. She'd thought she was "finished with the weight battle. i was done. i'd conquered it." she adds that she was "even cocky", telling friends how to lose weight by eating and exercising as she did.
who wouldn't be a little embarrassed? i think she's being humble.
i'm oprah's height and once weighed 200 pounds, and i hated it. i hated that my thighs slapped together when i walked, badly chafing my skin. i hated how my stomach rolled over my pants -- it was so uncomfortable. actually, just sitting was uncomfortable. when my breasts swelled to double Ds, it was hard to find a bra that supported me and ALL bra straps dug into my small shoulder, painfully leaving angry red marks. i also had reddish marks on my breasts and hips, from the stretch marks crawling all over me. stairs winded me. my stomach often hurt when i over ate. an on and on.
i can't imagine oprah feels her best. she says she's not exercising and she must be over-eating, which isn't healthy and doesn't feel good. why should she accept this?
and let's face it, it's not easy being really overweight in this society. fat is not as accepted as thin, and that sucks, but it's real. i wish it were different, but i can't pretend it's otherwise. i was at an oscar party last year and when oprah came on stage to present an award, someone in the room said, "wow, she's turned into a heifer." many others in the room commented on how heavy she'd gotten. who wants that? (of course, the guy who made the comment was an awful, heartless jerk, but i'm sure he's not alone in his thinking and remarks.) when i was heavy, i heard lots of rude remarks about my weight and my giant breasts. i don't hear them now, at 130. ever. it's better.
when i weighed 200 pounds. i really wanted to lose weight. if i weighed 200 pounds today, i'd really want to lose weight. i don't think oprah needs to embrace a weight that's uncomfortable and probably unhealthy for her.
as for talking about something like her weight when there are so many more important issues, Oprah, herself, says "i'm mad at myself. i'm embarrassed. i can't believe that after all these years, i'm still talking about my weight." i'm sure she'd rather be comfortable in her body and have time to put her energy elsewhere. first, she needs to feel good.
she also wrote that "my focus is no longer on weight. my focus this year will be on how to achieve optimum health get support when i need it, find ways to nurture myself, deepen my spiritual connection and have some fun."
these are great comments, but i have a sneaking suspicion, that like so many of us she WILL focus on her weight, even though she probably wishes she weren't.
am i off-base?