Today is a better day. Work was a little busier, so it went more quickly. My co-workers are very nice, and they're unbelievably patient with my mistakes and slow learning curve on the computer.
I'm not sure why i'm feeling better, but here are some guesses. I am
getting enough sleep every night.
blogging every night, then taking a lovely bath and going to bed.
working new hours, so i can sleep later and there's no traffic. The commute is a full half hour less each way now!
getting more comfortable at work, so i don't obsess about being employed quite so much
eating heartily and healthfully. yes, my weight's staying up there, but I'm sure getting enough brain food.
not beating myself up for the weight gain. just going back to the closet for bigger clothes.
sober and going to AA most nights
seeing things more clearly and realizing they're ok
much more sober, in every sense of the word
I guess this was a gratitude list of sorts. I'm so grateful for everything that's feeling and working a little better. Hallelujah!