Such a wonderful three-day weekend. I feel like I've "been on holiday". I saw friends and family, rested, read, and SLEPT!! ahh........
Early-ish in recovery, it got easier for me to have zero food issues on weekends like these. I'd be happy and present and peaceful and....easy, with everything.
The next step was being easy all the time, even when stressed, sad, angry, exhausted. I used to think I needed food to relieve my difficulties, when in facts, no amount food heals stressed, sad, angry and tired. Chocolate chip cream does not heal pain. In fact, after I've sucked down a ton of it, the pain is worse! It's like giving a beautiful new car to someone who is dying of thirst. A new car may be nice, but it doesn't hydrate, not even a little.
I need to learn to face and deal with fear, sadness, loneliness, tired...Then, I can get through it and come out the other side. If I don't face it, it's still there, and I will eat over it, once again.
Food is food.
The thing is, I think I hate food. I'm having a TMJ flare up but I've decided the only way to get on track is to eat regularly. I'm gonna finally start using my Bullet and blending up healthy smoothies and get on a nutrition schedule and then hopefully my night-eating issues will go away!
ReplyDeleteErin, that sounds like a really good idea. If you can make a plan and stick to it, you will feel much better, mentally and physically. And you won't have to deal with crummy feelings, mentally and physically, of having overeaten before bed. Thanks for writing!! Melissa
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