When i think about working in the Eating Disorders field, i wonder what i should weigh, and does it matter?
during my worst struggling anorexic years, i couldn't take seriously a professional who carried "extra" weight. In fact, i found an over-weight person's suggestions frightening. why on earth would i do what they told me?
now, of course, i understand that anyone/everyone can help me. and there's nothing wrong with carrying any amount of weight.
but what about the still-suffering client? will she listen to me if she doesn't like how i look -- if it made her uncomfortable?
I worried, too, when i was still a little too thin. would i give a bad impression and look as though i were still disordered in my eating? as my weight climbed, i kept in mind that this new look was a better role model for my teenaged niece, who fights her own battles. how could i tell her she was beautiful and perfect, no matter how much she weighed, when i still looked a little boney?
but then is there only a very narrow amount that i can weigh?
i've always thought i'd have to be one exactly perfect weight (with a few pound fluctuation) for anyone to listen to me about eating disorders. but there i go again, putting myself in a tiny box where there's one teeeny, tiny area where i'm okay.
What do you guys think?