last tuesday, i weighed 124. monday, 132.
how does that happen? i think i need to accept that my body is the boss, not my ED. it's never going to give up and say, "hey, let's be naturally skinny".
what i've done differently. i have not weighed myself since monday. i have not cut down what i'm eating (!). i am not skipping meals.
monday, i decided to experiment. what if i decide i want to weigh around 135? what would that be like? could i actually accept that weight?
i really do look fine. my jeans are on vacation. i've been wearing stretchies, which look cute with (imitation) ugg-like boots and sweaters or blazers.
after work on monday, i went to see He's Just Not That Into You. voluptuous scarlett johanssen was gorgeous. breathtaking. in comparison, super-duper skinny jennifer connelly seemed cold and...angular.
i'm glad to know there's a scarlett jo., because i'd have to subsist on ice to look like jennifer c.
so, i'm not drinking or taking pills (yay me!), and i am still eating a smallish slice of blueberry pie with rocky road ice cream after a mid-size dinner. yay me.