Monday, May 14, 2012

Doing Fine

i'm surprised to find that i am fine. things in my life are definitely not perfect, but somehow or other, i'm doing okay AND i know that things will be okay. that's not my style. usually, i worry and obsess and 100% assume the worst, but these days, i figure everything will work out. last week, i wrote about the issues i'm having with this guy i'm seeing. yes, it's NOT a healthy relationship, and that's something i must address and take care of, and that's what i'm doing. my car keeps breaking down, and i'm really having trouble paying for all the repairs. but somehow or other, i know i'll get by. my mechanic's letting me do a payment plan, a friend offered to lend me money if needed and worst case scenario, i'll get an advance on salary at work. money issues are really pressing right now, all around. i'm kind of stuck in my job, because i can't afford to do what i really want and that's frustrating. yet, that's life; it's reality. always in the past, i would have used these tough issues as reasons to binge or starve or drink or drug. now, i'm learning how to face what life throws me and manage. it feels good.

3 comments:

  1. Tough times don't last for ever thankfully. Even though I think they often feel like they do. It is really, really great to hear you are just dealing with the daily grind of crap. It is the only way.

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  2. OK, it's time. If you haven't read my memoir, Bastard Husband: A Love Story, I'll send you a copy for free. Or download it on Kindle and read it today. Or if you have read it, read it again. My ex used to get shitfaced drunk and them verbally abuse me and throw water on me when I slept (brilliant--doesn't leave a mark, only emotional scars). I am living proof of how your life can change once you clear your energy of Mr. Wrong.

    Glad you're back in the bloggy world. I've missed you!

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  3. good for you.i'm struggling with a lot of the same things right now. glad yr not coping by starving or drinking.
    s

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