tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post706537323092694592..comments2023-08-28T02:27:24.945-07:00Comments on I HATE TO WEIGHT... AND MORE: i Just Don't KnowI Hate to Weighthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241064340434705588noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post-83537802944026941622009-03-26T09:55:00.000-07:002009-03-26T09:55:00.000-07:00thanks, d. Gems rock!thanks, d. Gems rock!I Hate to Weighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17241064340434705588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post-9219447216184661792009-03-26T05:25:00.000-07:002009-03-26T05:25:00.000-07:00Hey!!! I'm a Gemini, too!!! Well, why didn't you...Hey!!! I'm a Gemini, too!!! Well, why didn't you say that in the first place? Of course we get the emotional wobblies :D We can't help it- it's the twin nature!<BR/><BR/>Keep on keeping on...Danielle Filashttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17559045917532735660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post-37388952582101400092009-03-25T08:19:00.000-07:002009-03-25T08:19:00.000-07:00karen; i love that -- my addictions ARE leading me...karen; i love that -- my addictions ARE leading me around by the nose. i'm not taking sleeping pills, i just WANT them. i've stopped drinking -- the short plan is for three weeks while i'm traveling with my brother. i think i can deal with a shorter plan.<BR/><BR/>re: the psychiatrist. she can't understand why i still struggle after all the therapy i've had. it makes me feel horrible. i leave there and sob. my therapist wants me to see someone she works with frequently and respects. and he's an addiction specialist.<BR/><BR/>we'll see. i don't have time for much right now. i know sleeping pills and drinking are the wrong choices. thank you for caring!!!!!<BR/><BR/>kim; you don't know how much it means to me to know that your husband is getting excited about life after solid sober time. i shared this with my therapist. she said that i don't seem to have hope that this can happen. i just think life will stink. i need to work on my thinking! thank you for sharing about your husband (wow, you have a "husband"). his progress begins to give me hope<BR/><BR/>danielle; you're such a good friend. and i love reading your blog. it takes me out of my addictive head and gets me thinking about fun, interesting things. i can picture myself playing Lady Macbeth. <BR/><BR/>ambivalence is where i spend so much of my life. sometimes i think it's because i'm a gemini. i have very different opinions and mood swings. i've learned that acting quickly can cause problems for me. that's why i wait until i have some real clarity. <BR/><BR/>thank you for being worried. it makes me think.I Hate to Weighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17241064340434705588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post-36488682333165545022009-03-24T20:51:00.000-07:002009-03-24T20:51:00.000-07:00Maybe you don't need to play the Either Or game. ...Maybe you don't need to play the Either Or game. I mean, medical patients get second opinions. Why can't patients seeking psychological treatment get second opinions?<BR/>I'm concerned for you. Ambivalence and apathy scare me more than full-blown freakouts, somehow. But maybe that's just me... I'm sure as heck in no place to give advice about the eating, drinking, and pill-love. All I can say is that I'm in your e-corner and am pulling for you. Hey have you thought about going back through your blog and reading some entries from when you were feeling more empowered?<BR/>Much love and light and peace to you, sister.Danielle Filashttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17559045917532735660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post-17782856509768214482009-03-23T16:48:00.000-07:002009-03-23T16:48:00.000-07:00I would stick with your psychiatrist, if I were yo...I would stick with your psychiatrist, if I were you. Sometimes, I know someone is doing their job right if they make me feel bad when I "mess up." It will be good to have accountability. Plus, who needs more change when you already have a lot on your plate (sorry, I hate how that pun creeps in)? I think it's ok to sit with ambivalence for a while. You know your thinking about alcohol isn't healthy... I realized the exact thinking in my now-husband about 9 months ago (he's 6 months without booze and seems to be adjusting to life without it, getting excited without it...slowly). I think you know best about drugs...and food... too. You know yourself really well. We probably all do, but it's hard to make the right decisions. I'd just let yourself be ambivalent, have a little chat with the angel and devil on each of your shoulders, and think about what you REALLY want for your life. I don't think we ever make the right decisions ALL the time, but you'll come up with a right path, I think... That's my more-than-2 cents ;)Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12524913753671188764noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8381543043245692093.post-41029079800977211442009-03-23T14:25:00.000-07:002009-03-23T14:25:00.000-07:00I think switching psychiatrists might be a bad ide...I think switching psychiatrists might be a bad idea. <BR/><BR/>Is she really making you feel terrible about yourself? Is she abusive? Or is she just tough on you when you slip? <BR/><BR/>You really don't want some wimpy shrink who will write bad scrips for you, and tell you what you want to hear, do you? You WANT someone who is strong, and CARES about your well being. <BR/><BR/>Your choices are yours, and yours alone. I suspect you already know the answers, but the addictions are leading your head around by the nose right now. <BR/><BR/>I know those justifications very well. <BR/><BR/>Be well, sweetheart. We're all pulling for you.Karen ^..^https://www.blogger.com/profile/05197114237324824217noreply@blogger.com